Eventually, my tenth choice was picked. Itu pun sekadar mengisi kekosongan dalam ruang UPU. Dia punya sedih tu, waktu MDS daftar a day lambat ok sebab sedih sangat. T.T

The future didn't seem bright anymore, I thought everyone deserves a second chance? My SPM result was just average and I moved on because I knew there would always room for me to improve myself. Knowing the fact that I didn't get what I wanted, frustrates the hell out of me. I already had my life plan where I am heading and alas never did once ever crossed in my mind taking business studies.

To compare my result with my sister, mine was way better but she managed to be in the course once I wanted. Up till this moment, I don't even know why I wasn't accepted to any of my first top 4 choices. That's what happened 3 years ago, not knowing what the future lies for me.

Moving forward to 2019, Alhamdulillah I successfully secured my Vice-Chancellor Award for my Diploma. Syukur Alhamdulillah. I am very thankful. I couldn't even find the exact word to express my feelings but in a word, it would be - Alhamdulillah. I believe that I have come too far to be where I am today. After all my effort and countless breakdowns throughout five semesters, they were finally paid off in the end.

Crazy how these past few years have been, doing something that I never thought of doing and able to finish what I've started - give me hope to strive for greater success and fly even higher in achieving my dreams. I might get comfortable with my course field already but deep down inside, my actual goal never dies and you guys are the ones who make it possible! I personally want to thank each and everyone who constantly make time to read my humble blog. I didn't have a lot of readers back then, not until this post blew out:

Semester 1

Semester 2

Semester 3

Semester 4

Semester 5 wasn't difficult as what I imagined it would be, what made it hard - we had so little time to complete our assignments and had no choice but juggling between study and stay true to ourselves because I reached that point I just wanted to quit. Things I had to deal with - continuous hectic weeks, last minute given tasks, and of course, the subjects got even tougher than previously yang sampai nak nafas pun tak sempat. That is what semester 5 was all about in a nutshell. We were told and reminded since part one that ENT would be troublesome and your friendship and level of patience will be tested that time. Well, indeed it was, not gonna lie on this but I am glad my groupmates and I had it done well.

I started off pretty well, skipped class for a couple of times during the first two weeks, arrived at the class just in time before lecturers began their teachings which something that I would never be proud of. I actually got carried away with the term of being a senior. You come late to class, ditched college events, literally didn't care what was happening to your surrounding and mainly you are the big sister after all yang macam hello show me some respect will do? Kidding.

As I am writing this, I don't really have the exact content what I would say because if I were to share on how do I study, I already talked about it so there's no point to share the same thing again. The routine was the same sampai ke akhirnya. Looking at myself now, I believe I have grown to be the person that I once hoped for. Alhamdulillah.

If you ever wonder how was it possible for me to study something that I don't like, you most probably forgot that everyone wants success, including me. Who doesn't want to achieve all the good things in life? It didn't take me so long to adjust my life back then. Whatever happens throughout the way was influenced by how my previous school, MRSM Tun Ghafar Baba taught me. With that, I am always thankful for the privilege of studying there, always. It was a bonus for me because TGB had prepared me well for my uni life.

Being a sentimental person requires me to create memories as many as possible before we part ways. I want to be able to look back at those diploma days I had, and thought of; it was indeed a beautiful journey. I didn't want to regret for the times I had to get close to my friends yet I didn't spend it well with them.  

Sometimes life just works in a mysterious way like how I actually ended up last semester. I happened to be close with these crazy bunch who wanted to go for a holiday after finals yet we still haven't planned anything until today. #sembang. Nevertheless, we got closer for the past few months and mind you; they were my happy pills who made my day better and crazier. 

If you were to ask young and innocent Sarah Hannani - to be close with them was probably the least favourite thing she wants to do. Kelakar bila fikir balik, I hated Zafirah and Solihin back then. Just because they were typical couple that hooked up among classmates. Hillarious! Look at where it has gotten me, they played a huge role as we spent a lot of time together. Breakfast together, lepas kelas melantak pun sama-sama. study pun sesama, membawang tu paling sekepala,#eh and, honestly, I wouldn't want to cherish, spend and enjoy my final semester with anyone else other than these annoying friends Weena, Sujep, Zaf, Sol, Nas and Amal.

To my amazing friends whom I got close within final semester and those I made friends with since my first day in Segamat, thank you for being a part of my journey. You guys have no idea how you have shaped me throughout the way. For all the good things you say, all the laughs and inside jokes, all the membawang session, and mainly for accepting for who I am even when there were times you want to kill me due to my annoyingness. Therefore, the least that I can do is to pray to Allah SWT to bless you my friends with endless barakah and happiness dunya and akhirat Aamiin ya Rabbal Alamin. I hope our friendship lasts forever and may our paths meet again in shaa Allah.

There is no shortcut in success. You have to work hard to earn it. Doesn't matter if your friends did well in the test and you didn't because what's the point of finals even there? Buck up and double your effort to score for finals! All you need was discipline and arranged your time properly - prioritize what to study first and please focus one subject at a time. Tips: You don't even need to study everything, kalau topic ada 10 cover je 9 topics. Trust me you will have more time to revise. BUT make sure you have read every single thing sebab if not, you wouldn't get to answer well later on. Thank me later! 

I remember someone asked me is Segamat a good place to study? I would say YES despite the simfoni alam location itself. I personally enjoyed doing my diploma there, it's just the place is too far and not even close to how Melaka is. There are always pros and cons though, but Segamat isn't bad after all, perhaps I got used to it. I was in TGB before so there was nothing much different. Since UiTM Segamat is small so it doesn't matter if you get up late, you can still rush to class and get just in time. Except if your morning class is at BK, then you most probably dead by the time you arrive. In all fairness, you won't get distracted easily because you don't even have any fancy place to go, you have no choice but stuck in your room and study. And the food there is so good masyaAllah so don't worry datang 40 kg, balik dari Segamat 50kg. I would miss the fresh air, those green trees,  disruption made by annoying monkeys, banjir yang semua gelabah balik and of course, One Segamat (the only place to watch movie)

I have always wanted eagerly for this day to come, for me to able - write and wrap everything in a post. It feels like yesterday I first came to Segamat, and now I am counting days to embark my new phase of life. I precisely remember the struggles I had to face when I learned ACC106 for the first time and I ended up getting an A+. Also, I experienced sitting for final semester paper twice because it was believed that MGT300 paper question had leaked among students. Hence we had to retake the paper a year ago, totally wasted our semester break masa tu sebab kena study. I guess my diploma is complete! 

If there is one thing I've learned from this journey that would be - give our best in anything we do even though we don't like it, paksa diri andai perlu. That's what I did but do figure out ways on how to realize your real dreams into reality. We'll get both so we are the lucky ones. As for myself, since writing is one of my strength according to many of you, I will keep on writing and inspiring. Thank you for those compliments you say through DM, WhatsApp and comments! I am humbled and grateful. The least that I contribute to society is through my own stories so that we all can be better! 

I was going through my timeline on Instagram then I saw a post with huge headline saying - inappropriate photos of these public figures went viral on the Internet. Being the makcik bawang I am, and how clueless I was because I never owned a Twitter account - I scrolled down the comments to keep myself updated. 

Then only I knew what was really happening. When I was reading comments from netizens, there was this comment that caught my eyes which was from a person who commented that the actress has always on - off when wearing hijab but she seemed to wear hijab all the time on social media. I mean, some people saw and witnessed her; free-hair outside and that's that. I am here not to membuka aib anyone, but I feel like sharing my personal thoughts upon the incident.

To move from one place to another or in Islam, we named it as hijrah - it has always been the most beautiful phase to anyone who was given the hidayah and guidance to change for the better. Hijrah for many of us is when someone who chooses to put on hijab, and slowly trying to get close to Allah SWT. I always get excited whenever a friend of mine decided to cover up. Alhamdulillah. 

However, these days, it seems as if wearing a hijab more likely becoming a trend instead of pleasing Allah SWT. I am not going to touch on how someone styles its hijab, labuh or not, covering chest or not if thats what people call it. Wearing a hijab isn't about keeping ourselves updated with fashion-trend, it is so much more, the inner peace and contentment that we feel inside matters the most. So when do you think it's the perfect time to wear hijab?

If you were to ask me, I would say, do it when you are ready. When I say ready it means when you have found the right reason to change that you will keep close to your heart, and you do it because the inner you want to, not because everyone around you wear hijab, not because you get tired when someone asks you when are you going to cover up and mainly, not because of fashion. The time will come, trust me and again, that is when you are all ready.

I am not saying nor encourage anyone not to wear hijab as soon as possible, but before you do, before you decide to embark the new phase of life - do check your nawaitu, whether if you really want it or simply just because you want to own plethora of branded hijabs which people nowadays are so obsessed with. Scary isn't? We might have the intention to get close to our Creator, but we got off track with our purest intention throughout the way. That's the ujian that was sent indirectly to us.

Nevertheless, never stop searching for the right reason for you to become a better person. Everyone has its own ways in looking for the light and guidance of Allah SWT. Some have it easy while some are not, but we are created to always look for one and another; support each other and together we strive for eternal happiness in shaa Allah. Those who have it easy, who come from strong fundamental of religion should never looked down on people who are just not as lucky as you are. Help and guide them. 

Moving on to the next point which people nowadays love and very pro in it - cyber-bullying. Netizens mostly use abusive and harsh words when expressing on the Internet and it so unhealthy. Individuals tend to criticize any wrongdoers by insulting instead of advising. This world is so sick I tell you. People seem to have more than 24 hours - that they even have time looking for others' flaws and faults. Don't you all have better things to do?

I'd be saying that people nowadays have this kind of illness which is - tend to feel that they are BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE, hence the corrupted society we live in. It is okay to tell someone what is wrong and point out their mistakes but do it in a good way. Do not humiliate them by talking publicly; instead, talk to them nicely and privately. That's what advising is all about. But alas, people seem to enjoy making shame of someone mistakes without even thinking the consequences. Backlash look to be normal these days even though it projects negativity; social media used to be a good medium to share, to keep in touch with friends, but I guess it doesn't work like that anymore. 

Instead of showing hates, why not be the bigger person with bigger heart - tell them nicely and the least that we can do is to pray for them, pray that Allah SWT give them the hidayah to turn back to Him. I even noticed that netizens also left negative comments on one of the public figure's family member; social media. Tak cukup orang yang buat salah, dengan ahli keluarga diheret jugak. I find it is unnecessary to express your devastation and anger towards innocent person. Some even have the guts to question how they were raised up. Astghafirullahalazim. How did people get so outspoken nowadays, you tell me. I guess people are more satisfied when they see someone is drown and weak. Be the best version of you, stop all the hate and judging.

Same goes to our sisters who choose to free-hair; would you judge? have you judged? I'd say yes, I wouldn't want to lie. Tapi kita bukan Tuhan untuk menghukum, itu bukan tugas kita. Do not look down on these people - they have their own struggles and who knows, someday when they are on the right path again, they are two hundred percent better than us. We never know what the future holds for us so be kind, and think twice before you say anything. #note2self. 

We should be the good friend; remind them how Ar-Rahim; The Most Merciful has showered us with endless blessings, and help them to find themselves again. It doesn't need to be promptly, all that matters is effort, and never stop learning and grow from mistakes.  

There was one thing I've learnt from an ustaz over the past years, and I vividly remember his advise that I keep close to my heart up to this day - "merasakan diri lebih baik dari orang lain merupakan permulaan kepada segala kejahatan"; at first, I thought what is the correlation though? perasaan kita dengan orang, apa kaitan? We thought that we are good enough, lepastu lahir rasa takbur, lepas tu elok istiqamah, slowly we feel demotivated to continue. Sebab apa? Sebab kita fikir kita lebih baik dari semua orang. I've mentioned this before on my blog but I want to write it again, for a reminder to myself.

With advancement of technology we see, and the innovation we feel, as well as the modern it gets; the lesser the morale of a person it seems. I guess the civilized culture that were taught have slowly disappear without we realizing. Stop hating and spread the loves. Believe me, do good to others and the good will come to us. We are better than this, Malaysians.