Dan sampai satu saat,

Bila semuanya kembali asal,

Engkau akan langsung merindui,

Apa yang engkau lalui,

Dan itulah namanya kenangan.

Selamat Tinggal 2018.

Salam 2019.

Terlalu banyak hal;

dan terlalu banyak perkara 

yang mengajar aku dari segenap penjuru

meski dari sudut pelajaran,

mahupun persahabatan; 

andai diringkaskan

ia bermaksud kehidupan.

Mungkin dulunya aku tidak melalui,

tapi Tuhan lebih tahu,

Dia aturkan sebaiknya,

pada fasa yang aku sudah bersedia

kerana Tuhan tahu,

aku kuat untuk menempuh 

ujian yang mendatang.

Sungguh tidak mudah, 

namun aku bangga, 

bangga dek kerana aku bisa,

untuk lewati cerita;

yang sudah lama tertulis 

buat aku sejak awalnya.

Tahun yang penuh seribu satu makna,

kini aku tinggalkan,

berlalulah engkau meninggalkan kesan,

serta kenangan,

kerana sejauh mana aku cuba untuk lupakan,

aku masih tidak boleh lari,

dari engkau yang kini membentuk aku,

menjadi seorang yang matang.

Tahun baru kini kian menjelma,

tak sabar untuk aku mulakan,

tanpa penuh rasa ragu,
aku melangkah,
untuk menyambut engkau,
si warsa baru.

Pengalaman yang diperoleh,

akan aku jadikan teladan sebaiknya;

agar aku mampu jadi lebih baik 

dari sebelumnya.

Terima kasih, 2018.

Assalamualaikum wbt, it's been awhile, way too long since my last post. How's everything going fellas? Alhamdulillah 14 weeks down, the last few weeks were crazy and hectic. I wasn't even sure if I actually showered using soap or not. So many things needed to be completed in SO. LITTLE. TIME.

Anyway, I am on my study week leave, and I decided to have some me time, rejuvenates myself, and do what I love doing before I start study again for finals. Phew, SEMESTER 5. #enroutetoANC

It feels surreal that I am almost done, and I am having sort of mixed feelings lately. Semester 5 has been the toughest and it would remain as one! However, there are so many events and things I got to tick off this semester, and able to get out of my own comfort zone.

Without further due, I am here to share about my experience during Program Pewaris Muda Peringkat Kebangsaan 2018 that I joined, a month ago. I received a lot of questions on how did I get chosen, when did they choose and etc. Truth to be told, I volunteered. It all started when Zafirah and Solihin asked us, if we wanted to join this keluarga angkat thingy that would be held somewhere during mid-sem. They even mentioned that I never experienced something like this so why not? Yea, you are right, mid-sem holidays gone.

Just. Like. That.

Without thinking twice, I gave my name to them. So, geng Bali Mari pun join la program ni. It was held in Parit Bugis, Muar for 4D3N. Basically I only had 4 nights with my family before I went back to Segamat on Tuesday. #goodbyemidsembreak

As soon as we arrived, I swear to God, I wanted to go back. Sempat tak eh nak patah balik? Not because the ambiance itself, but I was scared that we were going to mingle with participants around Malaysia. no one told me it wasn't going to be UiTM Segamat students only. I thought I just got scammed by my own friends.

Brb cari bas balik KL.

We were split into our keluarga angkat alongside with participants whom I never known. Thankfully I was placed with Weena. MasyaAllah gembira bersyukurnya saya. Then we took our bags  luggage and were brought to our foster mother's house whom we called, mak.

I met Dila and Timah for the first time which also means to more new friends. Aku punya excited tu sampai naik motor pun buat story ok. We clicked, yang macam semudah itu sahaja. Sampai je petang tu, letak luggage memasing pastu terus bergambar.

DEFINITELY SARAH HANNANI. NOT SURPRISED.


 

The first day was somehow plain and cliche just like any other programs. I slept inside the bus throughout the way cause, really, I didn't have mood anymore while the girls, Nazmi, Cob, Nas and Sol were playing Plato. #rechargingmyself

Then, I was placed into this crazy group mates of mine, called, Avengers. I wasn't in the same group with my friends. *my heart breaks into pieces*

Nightmare. 

Survival Skills Mode Automatic On.

Since it was first time, so everyone was obviously shy shy cat, and true colors haven't prevail..just yet. Everyone was behaving, except me! Duhh, don't act like you never know me. Senang jadi friendly ni, senang je get along dengan semua orang. EH? Basically, we had to introduce ourselves to our group mates, and created our own war cry. Pastu pulak, ada this one uncle sang this song yang my friends and I never heard before. So we looked at each other, and thought, why are we here again? Ironicnya, sekarang kalau pergi NR je mesti dengar lagu tu. #dead

The first night ended with K.E and Syahrul teman us for awhile outside our house sambil lepak di buaian because Weena and I were too scared to get inside. Mak wasn't home yet, Dila and Timah went out with Abang Syafiq. Hence, that is where it all started for me and Syahrul #EH.

Joking. Obviously. 

Anyhow, the place was quite small to gather 200 people at one time. The weather was hot, and I was really confused, where was I actually. One minute I felt I was in Parit Bugis, two seconds after, I thought I was somewhere in Padang Pasir. Tapi malam sejuk gila, kalau malam hujan confirm bangun lambat esok tu. However, I had really good stay though, remind me of my great grandmother's house. Everyone there was super friendly and kami cukup makan. In fact, terlebih makan, asal break between activities je makan.

The second day was all about prepping ourselves untuk perasmian. Pagi tu, I video called Sujep, Zaf semua tapi dorang tak angkat sebab I wanted to ask if what I'm wearing tu tak over, ended up we video call-ed Sol, pastu the first thing he said, 
"Kau kenapa pakai macam tu setan" 

I was wearing cardigan...salahkah aku?

Then I asked, "ok aku tukar sekarang. So tukar seluar la kan (cause I was wearing my maroon trousers LOL) 

Then he said. "Tukar baju la gila"

Forever thankful that I did. 

Nothing much happened but I got to watch Barongan, a Javaneese Traditional dance. Scary sh*t, I swear. I just hope I would sleep soundly and peacefully that night. Alhamdulillah I did. Pastu, habis perasmian pulak, balik rumah mak, bergambar lagi. Selagi lighting tu on point, bergambar je. All thanks to Dila for lending us her iPhone.

Later on, we asked help from our jiran (Syahrul, K.E, Botak) to take our photos pastu kan...they never got skills, adik aku tangkap lagi ok rasanya.

Malam tu, we had activity dekat masjid and makan nasi dalam talam. Kami berempat habis licin, sebab I was so famished (blame period) padahal semua kecik-kecik je tau. 

Then we sat according to group once again to fill up the forms who gonna join for Sukan Rakyat on the next day. Group kita orang terlebih perform sebab dorang yang letak je nama semua without our consent..while other groups were still struggling untuk cari wakil kumpulan, Group Avengers menggunakan kuasa vito HAHA. Thus, group kita orang yang first hantar list name tu semua. They are all crazy I swear. If you were to ask me, how was everyone there, I would say,

"Takdir menemukan saya dengan orang-orang hebat disamping sifat yang kelakar yang masyaAllah why are you guys so funny"

We started with talk and sharing session by MCMC on the third day. *yawns* My housemates had nasi lemak for breakfast pastu dengan ceramah and the weather pulak teramat aman obviously good combination to sleep. Dia punya mengantuk tu macam I don't care anymore nak tidur je nasib baik ada Luqman (one of our group mates), kita orang membawang je banyak pastu tetiba I noticed his friend tengah catit nota.

I asked promptly, "Kau buat apa ni",
he replied, "Nanti nak ada kuiz kan kejap lagi"

KELAKAR. SUMPAH.

Because of him, our group was the first one who managed to answer the question pastu Isz dapat bag MCMC warna pink HAHA. On the third day, everyone got along pretty well already, semua terserlah sifat kelakar masing-masing. Sukan Rakyat was held after Solat Jumaat, and I joined most of them. Forever blaming Isz and Fayyad for writing down my name but in some way, we created bond without us realizing. In between games tu ada karaoke by participants, tetiba rasa macam dekat concert hm. Dari situlah tahu Razi ada bakat menyanyi.


Tengok muka Fayyadh.

There was this time yang Bob was about to finish the race waktu dia lompat dalam guni pastu dia almost terjatuh then terus all of us jatuh macam dominos sebab nak tolong Bob punya pasal. Thats when I knew, these people are not normal. Petang tu Dila, Weena and I decided to walk instead of going back by van. Menyempat la bergambar jugak sebab Golden Hours gittew. Tetiba rasa macam eh dekatnya rumah mak dengan tapak berkumpul.

We had talk and sharing session by PU Rahmat on our 3rd night in Parit Bugis. His speech was simple yet meaningful that I still remember them. A night left before we all go back. A night left till mid-semester break finally over. Malam tu jugak cabut undi untuk bahagikan tugas gotong royong pada hari esok. Semua orang cuak sebab taknak gotong royong masjid & surau, including me. Waktu dorang cabut undi tu perasaan serupa menunggu keputusan peperiksaan.



All pumped up for last day! Kembara Jalinan Kasih ni tugas paling senang tetapi emosi kena kuat, aku rasa berpeluh pun tak sempat kot. Group kita orang gerak secara konvoi, media satu van, wakil Menteri satu kereta, kita orang punya group sampai dua van. Best sebab macam feeling Hari Raya gittew. 


We got the chance lalu kelapa sawit, bergambar la of course, pastu rumah terakhir kami pulak yang dijamu. There was this time yang abang cameraman ni suruh kita orang acah-acah jalan kan tapi they were walking fastly so abang tu cakap;

"Eh korang ni jangan laju sangat. Tak reti berlakon la korang ni"

SERIOUS TALK EH AKU GELAK MACAM APA LEPAS TU.



I told you all, program ni menemukan aku dengan orang-orang kelakar.


I learned to always stay humble, be grateful sebab kalau kita rasa diri kita susah, ramai lagi yang susah. It opened my eyes yang all these days I was never grateful. I always asked for more that I never knew the meaning of thankful. #stopshopping #sellingallmyclothesnow

Majlis Penutupan ni ada YB Syed Saddiq, he is super fine I tell you. He isn't handsome but he is hot. Didn't get the chance to have selfie with him though. :/


Jadilah satu.


Bila cinta kau tak dibalas.


Terima kasih Jabatan Penerangan Negeri Johor atas kesempatan ini. Terima kasih kerana memberi peluang untuk anak muda seperti saya mencungkil bakat terpendam dan memperoleh ahli keluarga yang baru. Terima kasih Homestay Parit Bugis, Muar sudi menerima kunjungan kami. Terima kasih buat sahabat-sahabat yang baru saya kenali dan amatlah besar harapan saya untuk melihat diantara kalian untuk meneraju tampuk kepimpinan negara kita pada masa akan datang. In shaa Allah.


Semoga takdir menemukan kita sekali lagi. Terima kasih untuk segala kenangan yang dicipta. #PM18

Assalamualaikum wbt everyone, I hope everyone is doing well.

I sat for my last paper on Thursday which also marks the end of Semester 4. I swear man, I cried a lot, and even fainted because my body had enough. The toughest semester so far, not sure if I was playing around the whole time or the subjects were being uncooperative throughout the whole semester. I totally forgot what it feels being smart, mind telling me again when was the last time I scored below 75?

ZAMAN SEKOLAH.

It is a long story but let's make it short, one of the Executives responded to our interview request email. Peah told us promptly after we went out from hall since we had test that day and,

she told us the interview would be 

on the next day..

It was around 4 in the evening already so we rushed back to our hostels and packed our stuff.

I would be lying if I wasn't excited sebab it reminded me to the Ipoh trip which I had last year. That #triplayanSarah is about to turn one. Time flies.

Then we off to KL by bus, KKKL of course. Pilihan no satu semua orang. I gave my mother a call while I was in the bus, and asked her to book a hotel room for five of us. #demand #sangathighclass. Since the interview would be before lunch hour, hence we thought it's better to stay nearby je la kan, save time gitu.

Always and always tell your parents where are you going and who are you going out with, so that Allah SWT will always protect us from any harms or injuries. It is very important for us to keep them updated with whatever we are up to. I am that type yang apa-apa je mesti kena inform parents, I even told them if I skipped class ke apa. Nanti takde la minta ampun maaf banyak sangat time Raya, sebab basically they know everything, baik ke jahat I would tell them HAHAHA.
Mestilah kena marah tapi I won't feel guilty for lying or not telling hehe.

We safely arrived at TBS around 9 something. Called some of my friends, asking them if they were nice enough to send us all 5 girls to Damansara. The interview would be at the HQ located in Citta Mall. I never heard of that mall before..mybe I was living in a cage all these while?

John, if you are reading this, THANK YOU FOR SENDING US TO DAMANSARA. Pastu mestilah I membawang dengan dia. John drove us to Damansara and since everyone was hungry so we stopped at Mc Donald's before checked in. It was already around one in the morning and everyone was half dead. 

Was I excited for the interview? Definitely!

Since our hotel was quite near to Citta Mall, we checked out a bit late. Tapi takde la lambat mana pun sebab sempat la makan Boat Noodle dengan dorang. Rasa macam weh bestnya girls trip. Ha ah ye girls trip sangat dengan memasing bawak bag packnya, macam budak sekolah tau tak.

Since I am a morning person, I was the first one to wake up. I only had like 3 or 2 hours of sleep? Pastu WiFi laju so I tengok The Royals. Someone please tell me that The Royals wasn't the reason why I freaking screwed up most of my test papers. Boleh la kot berhenti belajar, practice jadi calon orang rumah HAHA ok tak kelakar nak study nak study.

Macam biasa, iPhone paling canggih, itu jadi mangsa untuk tangkap gambar so in this case, mestilah Peah. Dia baru tukar phone kot, pastu mestilah I jahannam kan sampai fuyoo semua gambar instagram potrait je but I archived most of them dah sebab the lesser the photos, the better. Here are some of the photos I took for my friends, 

Menyempat la nak tangkap gambar tu kat memana kan, ni tengah tunggu uber ni. 

I had my first time working with Peah this semester, mind you that she is also a perfectionist. We might not really have so many things in common but in someways, we actually think alike on certain elements. Oh yes of course she is 10 times better than me. #PeahTheLadyBoss

Miss Izra, the one who helped us a lot in completing our assignment. She is the definition of beauty with brain. I love her English so much. Let me share a bit what I gained throughout the interview, ni pasal FireFly la.

Ms Izra Azliana

This orange company is the cheapest airlines which offers domestic flights, mainly. It goes internationally tapi itu pun yang near by je sebab these airlines are made specifically for short distances je. If you want to go to Bangkok, you need to depart from Penang. FireFly only flying from Sultan Abdul Aziz Shah Airport as we all know. Firefly ni more to play safe la kiranya.

Miss Izra also emphasized that we should believe in rezeki comes from Allah SWT in so many terms. Soo Ewe Jin once wrote in Sunday Starters, "Blessings are not only come in terms of money and resources" which is true! To be surrounded with good friends, and to be physically and mentally healthy are also blessings. Maybe we should stop complaining and start to be thankful for everything that happens, #notetoself.

something relates with reasons behind it. As for me, even though business was not my first choice, and 360 degree opposite with what I always wished for back then, like it or not I need to perform well.

Don't make me start with the why I am very determinate to succeed ok, pergi la scroll posts yang 2 tahun lepas.

Recently, I keep on telling myself that I am very proud of myself. #selfabsorbed, not to brag, but I forgot to give myself credits that I have come this far and I swear it was never easy. Nobody said it was easy though but I told myself, nothing worth having comes easy. 

I have one more semester to go before I am able to call it's a wrap for good. Please make doa for my friends and I ok. Kalau boleh doakan jugak tahun depan dah berdua la hahaha. I guess it's gonna be awhile for my next post..kot. Till then, goodbye.